I will never run out of characters to mourn

With every story I've ever encountered- whether it was a book, a movie, a TV show, anything- I've always loved character first. They have to have great characters. Without them, I might appreciate a story, and even respect it, but I will never love that story if I don't truly adore at least one of them. Even if it's one that I love to hate, or wish I didn't love.

The problem with getting into the Song of Ice and Fire books, and watching A Game of Thrones, is that I can't help but love a lot of these characters, and there are a lot of them to love. But with this story, I know it will only end in tears.

A quick update

There's rumors that the marketing department is going to move into the empty offices on my hallway at work. Just in case I lose my privacy, I've done two more cartwheels in the hall in the last couple of weeks.

One of them may or may not have been in a dress.

Adventures in brainspace

I am a person who can not and will not watch horror movies. I can't deal with the gore and with people killing each other. So I just stay away from them. Neaves has been trying to get me to watch Red Eye for years because she loves it. I will not. I've heard that American Horror Story is amazing, and part of me is curious, but the rest of me keeps saying, "Are you an idiot? It says 'horror' right there in the title. Go back to your Community and your Bob's Burgers." And I do.

There are some weird shades of grey to this, though. I'm pretty much fine with monster movies. Something about it being removed enough from reality, although there are those where I still have to look away from the screen (Shaun of the Dead, I'm looking, or rather not looking, at you).

So if you had told me even a month ago that I'd be watching a very, very real video of a chick skinning a wolf in abject fascination, I'd have been very confused. But here I am. I'll warn you now, that the video is pretty graphic. The video will warn you, too. It's sorta gross, but also sorta incredible.

The amazing and awesome Hank Green did one of his "Thoughts from places" videos a few months ago from the Philip L. Wright Zoological Museum at the U of Montana, where he met the equally amazing and awesome Emilie Graslie. Since then, she has started doing her own series of videos called The Brain Scoop. And since then, I have gotten completely excited for every video, and I don't think I've even blinked during a single one of them.

I think the reason I'm so taken by these videos (and I strongly encourage you to go back and watch more of them, too. Maybe start with the earlier ones and work up to the wolf skinning.) is that it's so unlike the sorts of things I normally see and hear about. I love my life, but it can tend to get a little self-contained. I'm not in classes anymore, so I have to really make an effort to read outside my comfort zone, which I do to varying effect. But mostly I can just read what I like. Same goes for the shows I watch, and the podcasts I listen to, and the things I do in my free time.

At least with the podcasts, I've managed to get in some more of these new perspectives. Two of my favorites are the Moth podcast and the Stuff You Should Know. I had a very similar experience with SYSK a couple of weeks ago when I was listening to "Do You Stay Conscious After Being Decapitated?" That episode came out almost two years ago, and it had just been sitting in my ipod all that time because I kept thinking I might not be able to handle the subject matter. I think the only podcast I've ever not been able to finish was their episode on cannibalism. I got about ten minutes in and decided I couldn't take any more. I barely even remember what was being said, but it was enough. But not only did I do ok with the decapitation one, but I was so fascinated that I got exuberant. I was rapid-fire IMing my friend at work because I couldn't just sit there at my desk and keep it all to myself. It was all too interesting to not get to gush to someone about it. And I love that feeling.

That feeling is why I'm willing to keep trying to watch these videos and learn about these things. Because when you're really learning something- not sitting at a tiny desk in high school memorizing things, but actually absorbing and building up your brain with new information- it's so exciting. I hope I never run out of things that give me that feeling. I hope I keep feeling that curious my whole life, even if it means taking on the things I'm not sure I can handle. It's so worth it.

Go learn things, you guys.

Better late than never, right?

I said the other day I’d lost interest in writing a new years’ resolution post while I was trying to write it, but apparently that was a lie, because I still want to write it. It’s been on my mind a lot.

I think it’s because I have real ones, I think for the first time ever. I had a big plan for 2013. The college where I work was going to add a Masters program that I was very, very interested in, and I was really excited and gearing up to dedicate basically the next two years of my life to it. However, that’s not happening. The program is not going to go (yet. They’re still hoping to get it off the ground in the near future, and if they do, I’ll probably be first in line because it will be great), so now I feel like I have this big gap to fill.

It’s made me think a lot about all those big grown-up things. What I want to be doing, how I feel about my job and where I’m going with it, how I feel about where I live and whether or not I want to stay here for at least two more years. Jesus, all this sounds so adult even as I’m writing it and it’s weird. As soon as I’m done here I’m going to go eat a bunch of sugary things and jump on my bed to try to feel like a kid again.

But suddenly I find myself making all these big plans and changes, even if they actually seem like small ones. So with that in mind: resolutions. Which actually seem to be sticking so far, amazingly enough.

First, I want to finally start sending out some writing for publication. I’m nearly five years out of college with a writing degree. I should be writing, and working towards being a writer, since that’s what I actually want to do. So it’s time to start polishing the stories I have, and keep working on writing more.

I want to use my time better. By which I basically mean less Netflix, more reading, writing, and even knitting. I waste too much time doing absolutely nothing productive, and I could get way, way better at that.

I want to finally go on a real trip this year. I have a friend that does guided hikes through the Swiss Alps, and he’s been trying to get me to go since I was still a student. And I have no big plans for this year (not anymore, anyway!), so I’m going to finally get a passport and finally go see somewhere new.

In the same vein of wasting less time and doing more, I’ve been thinking for awhile about starting a zine. I’ve been planning and messing around with ideas, and getting more and more excited about doing it. So I’m starting a zine! I even wrote some stuff for it already, and I got a name all picked out. More on that later, that’s for sure. I talked awhile ago about how I was on the lookout for a project, and I think this is my project.

Finally, I want to make my apartment look good. It’s the first apartment I’ve ever moved in without already having some idea of when I’d move out again. It’s also the first apartment where that one-year lease benchmark passed without me even thinking about whether I wanted to move somewhere else. I love my apartment. It’s nice, and old, and it suits me and it has a great kitchen, and my friends and I are finding that it’s pretty great for throwing parties. But I still have things that are in boxes, and books that don’t have shelves, and my desk is sort of a repository for all the old mail and odds and ends and junk that I hide when I throw a party. So I want to make my apartment look as great as it could be.

So that’s my plan for 2013. Growing up, basically. More on all of that later. Because like I said last time, I do plan to blog more. So you’ll get to hear about all of this stuff.

Here we go

I was gonna do a post about new year's resolutions, even though it's already a week into the year. But then I realized I haven't posted in two months (again). Maybe that should be one of my resolutions.

Quit ignoring your blog, Kat!

Either way, I'm pretty excited for this year. I feel like it's going to be a good one. More on all of that later. I swear. I think. If I don't keep forgetting to blog again.

Sorry I'm so lazy at this.

Fun fact part deux:

Every time I see a spider in my shower, which is fairly often, I immediately name it Steve. I don't remember deciding this. I just see them, and go, "Morning, Steve. Do me a favor and stay up in your corner, ok? Enjoy the steam, and try not to fall down into my shampoo or anything. Thanks, buddy."

It reminds me of in the Betsy-Tacy books, how Betsy's family always named their horses Old Mag. I think this is my justification for not stopping myself from that particular bit of innocuous insanity.

A bookish weekend

I feel like it has to be a very good sign when you walk up to the register with a book, and the guy behind the counter says, "No! I wanted to read that! Now I'll have to order it again!"

To which I replied, "Tough! I'm buying it!"

Yesterday I went up to Taos for the wool festival. I managed to restrain myself to just one skein of very pretty sock yarn. But I also bought a book at Moby Dickens, the little indie bookshop there. I've bought a book there almost every time I've gone to Taos, because I like supporting indie bookshops. Also I like new books.

This one was one of five new books I got this week. I got The Casual Vacancy and John Hodgman's boxed set (both from Amazon. I like supporting indie bookshops, but I also like free shipping, and that I can buy books and odd-sized knitting needles at the same time). And the one from Moby Dickens is called My Mother She Killed Me and my Father He Ate Me: Forty New Fairy Tales. Which I couldn't resist buying, because it's exactly the sort of things I keep writing. Plus, it includes about a dozen authors I adore.

So I look forward to hopefully reading those sometime in the near future, after I finish the big, fat book I'm already reading, and the other ones in my pile to read as well.

The pile has gotten very large lately. I'm reading just as fast as I can. With breaks for knitting and Doctor Who.

Oh, and movies. I'm going to go see The Perks of Being a Wallflower later, based on yet another book I re-read recently. It's been a good couple of weeks for books, is what I'm saying.