I think it’s because
I have real ones, I think for the first time ever. I had a big plan for 2013.
The college where I work was going to add a Masters program that I was very,
very interested in, and I was really excited and gearing up to dedicate
basically the next two years of my life to it. However, that’s not happening.
The program is not going to go (yet. They’re still hoping to get it off the
ground in the near future, and if they do, I’ll probably be first in line
because it will be great), so now I feel like I have this big gap to fill.
It’s made me think a
lot about all those big grown-up things. What I want to be doing, how I feel
about my job and where I’m going with it, how I feel about where I live and
whether or not I want to stay here for at least two more years. Jesus, all this
sounds so adult even as I’m writing it and it’s weird. As soon as I’m done here
I’m going to go eat a bunch of sugary things and jump on my bed to try to feel
like a kid again.
But suddenly I find
myself making all these big plans and changes, even if they actually seem like
small ones. So with that in mind: resolutions. Which actually seem to be
sticking so far, amazingly enough.
First, I want to
finally start sending out some writing for publication. I’m nearly five years
out of college with a writing degree. I should be writing, and working towards
being a writer, since that’s what I actually want to do. So it’s time to start
polishing the stories I have, and keep working on writing more.
I want to use my
time better. By which I basically mean less Netflix, more reading, writing, and
even knitting. I waste too much time doing absolutely nothing productive, and I
could get way, way better at that.
I want to finally go
on a real trip this year. I have a friend that does guided hikes through the
Swiss Alps, and he’s been trying to get me to go since I was still a student.
And I have no big plans for this year (not anymore, anyway!), so I’m going to
finally get a passport and finally go see somewhere new.
In the same vein of
wasting less time and doing more, I’ve been thinking for awhile about starting
a zine. I’ve been planning and messing around with ideas, and getting more and
more excited about doing it. So I’m starting a zine! I even wrote some stuff
for it already, and I got a name all picked out. More on that later, that’s for
sure. I talked awhile ago about how I was on the lookout for a project, and I
think this is my project.
Finally, I want to
make my apartment look good. It’s the first apartment I’ve ever moved in
without already having some idea of when I’d move out again. It’s also the
first apartment where that one-year lease benchmark passed without me even
thinking about whether I wanted to move somewhere else. I love my apartment.
It’s nice, and old, and it suits me and it has a great kitchen, and my friends
and I are finding that it’s pretty great for throwing parties. But I still have
things that are in boxes, and books that don’t have shelves, and my desk is
sort of a repository for all the old mail and odds and ends and junk that I
hide when I throw a party. So I want to make my apartment look as great as it
could be.
So that’s my plan
for 2013. Growing up, basically. More on all of that later. Because like I said
last time, I do plan to blog more. So you’ll get to hear about all of this
stuff.
